For about 12 years, my family and I have been on the journey of a lifetime. At times the road has been bumpy, other times it’s been smooth. It’s always been a narrow path. Every once in a while I get distracted by the wiles of the world and lose sight of the destination. Sometimes I forget to allow God to be my guide. However, with a loving hand He always steers me back on the path. There have been two absolute positives to this journey which have never wavered: traveling this journey together brings my family grows closer together, and God is always traveling with us. We’ve also met and befriended many other families along the way.
Many times passersby don’t understand the direction we are going. They don’t understand why we are on this path. Some long to join us, but they let fear and doubt overtake them. Many feel they don’t have the option to travel this way. Many feel they haven’t been called to travel this path. We are on a homeschooling journey.
It’s true many parents don’t feel they have an option when it comes to the education of their children. Many get defensive when choices and discussions of homeschooling arise. I think they may feel guilty because they believe they are not capable of homeschooling. I can understand this feeling as this is how I felt when we put our oldest into public kindergarten.
Actually, I think it was also the Holy Spirit using the thoughts and words of others to put His finger on an area that we needed to change. I think I was feeling convicted and rather than recognizing and yielding to that conviction, I became defensive. I came up with every excuse in the book as to why we couldn’t homeschool. I reasoned that it wasn’t in our budget because we had limited income (but the Lord had already placed me in the home working). I justified sending our oldest to public kindergarten because I thought I wouldn’t have time to teach her, my preschooler, and take care of the twins I was expecting that same year, and have time to work. I stated I didn’t feel God called our family to homeschool (all the while I knew deep down that it was what was best for my children and that ultimately He didn’t have to call me to something so specific. I knew He called me to put their best interest first and homeschooling was just that). I am a list maker and organizer, so I felt I had not had enough time to research, prepare, and organize for homeschooling my daughter (although I had almost 6 years of her life to prepare). Ultimately none of these excuses mattered. Whether God calls us on a specific journey or whether it is something He has commanded in His Word, He wants us to simply take a leap of faith and trust Him in all circumstances. I looked back on the many times I had taken leaps of faith into my Father’s arms. I remembered His faithfulness in every situation. I realized that I was selling my faith short, that I wasn’t being faithful, because I wasn’t willing to have the blind trust of a child. I needed to remember and trust in His Word.
“I can do all this through Him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13.
I realized I wasn’t seeking God in this area. I was putting my head in the sand and making excuses.
“But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” Matthew 6:33.
Financially, we couldn’t have afforded to live on limited income & homeschool. However, spiritually speaking, we couldn’t have afforded not to homeschool. The spiritual cost was too great. We are sorely mistaken if we believe our children can spend most of their waking hours immersed in the world, learning the ways of the world, and not be influenced. We are not being good stewards of the time we are given by throwing our children into the influence of the world and then having to de-program what they have learned. We sit in our homes pulling our hair and scratching our heads wondering what on earth has gotten into our children. We wonder why we struggle with behavior and attitudes. It’s not a mystery. It is the outside influences we allow into what should be our family home of worship.
I’ve heard the argument many times that we are to be salt and light in the world and that is true, but our children are not equipped to be salt and light. They are still babies in the faith, innocent in the ways of the prince of this world. They are still at the molding and shaping stage of life. We have to decide whom we want molding our children.
No amount of time and money, or lack thereof, should keep us from being faithful to God in all aspects of our lives. Money is temporal. The souls of our children are eternal. If we seek God, He will take care of the rest. In our home, God has rewarded our leap of faith by providing multiple small streams of income at different times for me to contribute. On paper our finances are always in the negative but do you know God makes sure every bill is paid. We have food, clothing, & many “wants”. We give back to the community and support a child through Compassion International. I can’t explain it, but I don’t have to. He has shown me how to make the most of the money He provides and the time in the day.
Parents, take God’s hand and make that leap of faith. He will hold onto you with all His might as you make the choice to homeschool. He is so good and faithful to keep His promises. He will take you and your children on this journey of a lifetime.